To truly ‘Flourish‘ is to grow and develop.
Personally growth and development are the two things that I feel that I would like to put my all into over the next year. It has taken me many years to be comfortable in myself and stop feeling the need to compare myself to others. I keep a very small friendship group as I find it incredibly hard to trust people and let them in.
To truly grow and develop I believe that it is something that needs to be not only emotional but also physically and mentally. It may seem like two small components in life but to do them both on such an epic (on a personal level!) scale is something that is not only daunting but extremely exciting.
There are so many parts of my self that I am looking forward to exploring and either improving, eradicating or just enjoying. Like many of you out there I love a good list so it’s time guys – let’s break out a list and see where it goes!
When you think of “monthly attitude” what is the first thing that comes to mind?! Well, let me tell you during my ‘time’ I am far from a dream-boat and closer to true definition of a complete and utter wanker (Urban Dictionary point 2!). Yep, I admit it – when I am on my period I don’t just see red I can be vile.
So, what am I going to do about it? In the effort to stop acting out I am going to look more into myself and spend a little more time alone. I figure that if I spend the time pampering myself and feeling good from within I won’t be such a vile human on the outside. I’ll let you know how I get on – I’m sure it will be on Insta or at least Twitter!
Contrary to the belief I would have put in you that I can be totally and utterly vile (see above!) for the rest of the month and my life I am actually a very caring person. I care hard and fast and have very little time for those that don’t give a shit. I am fiercely loyal and loving and those that are close to me know what I am like. To the naked eye (general public) I may come across as crass with a general disdain for people with a devil-may-care attitude but that is not farther from the truth.
Two of my closest friends recently alerted me to the fact that I tend to attract people who ‘need help’. Whether that help is emotionally, physically or mentally I seem to be the one that most people lean on.
Now, I don’t want to stop caring but right now I feel incredibly drained so I think for my own good I need to stop putting my all into others and think more about me. Of course I will continue to care for those that are in my life and of course those that I choose to care about but the time has come for me to take a step back and let people get the hell on with whatever they are going to do – even if I can see them on the path to ruin (that sounds a lot more dramatic than the way I mean it!).
***Blimey this post is getting VERY introspective isn’t it!***
Nothing But The Truth
Telling someone how it is isn’t something that has to be a nasty experience. With many years experience of not holding back that doesn’t make me a bitch (although I am self-confessed!) it is just easier to tell someone the truth instead of instilling false hope and then losing a potential friendship because a little white lie grows into something that neither of you can handle in the end. My friendships are based on respect and those that are closest to me know that I won’t lie to them about my feelings and thoughts. This is something that I will most definitely not change about myself – if anything I will continue to be this way and encourage others to do so if they so wish.
The truth may hurt but if told from the get go is like a plaster (band-aid for the Americans!) – if ripped off hurts a little but then the pain is gone. Concealing a lie is not only hard work but also hurts a lot more when found out as the distrust will eat away at you.
The list is of course ongoing but for now I think that is more than enough!
What is on your word for the year?
Check out Elizabeth’s awesome post & it may help you choose your word
There is a great downloadable list and plenty of space to help you mull things over. Although I was encouraged by this list mine came to me in a moment of inspiration on the toilet!